About Me
I recently re-read the “about me” page and decided that I am so depressing. I know that I have a lot to be bummed out about and believe me, I think sometimes I spend more time wallowing in my own sorrow…it’s so draining. 2009 is upon me. Last year I was having serious doubts about my upcoming year for various reasons and despite promises from my husband, Mike that 2008 would end differently (it did but not the way I think he thought it would!), 4 days into the new year, he was gone and for the past 365+ days I have been on a major freak out.
NO MORE.
Freaking out is no longer an option. Besides, it does not change the outcome of my life. Some call this “moving on” but I would rather call it living life while not forgetting. I will never forget Mike or the time that we shared or the wonderful gifts of unconditional love and the beautiful daughter he gave me. I am eternally grateful for these gifts. It would be a blemish on his memory to be otherwise. I am who I am because of him. I love you, Mike.
So, here I am - Kris Westover-Fluck. You may wonder why the hyphenation of my name. Actually, in life my name is not hyphenated at all. I have Mike’s name and it shall stay that way. But for the purpose of folks who once knew me before Mike to recognize who I am, I have included my maiden name. The picture above is one of my favorites. It was taken in 2005, I think. Michaela is not quite 3 years old in this picture and it was taken as a gift for her Dad. This is the picture we put in his coffin before we closed it. I know that sounds morbid but it was a simple gesture meant to show ourselves how we will always be with him as he is with us.
My blog started mostly out of boredom about 2 years ago. It became a staple in my life after Mike’s death because it’s an outlet for me to get things out. I have managed to anger some folks with some of the things I write here and to them, I say TOUGH! It’s my blog and I can say what I want. But it doesn’t stop them from calling me a bitter Republican or a mother f-er because I can’t stand Obama - think he’s a flash in the pan and a total socialist who will be the doom of our country. Whatever. Unlike them, however I can think these things and call him on his hypocrisy yet still respect his office. Despite my voting to the contrary, he is our president and so long as he doesn’t sell our air bases to terrorists and rip up our constitution, I will support him.
This blog has also hurt the feelings of some people I care a lot about. It wasn’t meant to. And using it as a soapbox to make my point to them is regrettable. However, I do share some personal feelings here. And criticizing my feelings is only going to rile me up because if there is one thing that you can truly call your own, it’s your feelings. Nobody can manufacture those for you. They’re all your’s. And if you don’t like what I have to say, that’s too bad.
Mainly, I blog about nothing. My blog is the Jerry Seinfeld of blogs but just not as funny. I used to be pretty funny. I like to be funny. Funny is good. Making people laugh is good. I’ll work on that, I promise.
What else about me? I love Disney. I don’t wallpaper my walls with Mickey Mouse or anything but I love going to Disneyland. A LOT. I go as much as I can. Mike worked for Southwest Airlines. And since he gave nearly 9 years there, we as his surviving family members have earned the right to fly free with them until 2012. So, we plan on going to Disneyland as much as we can, as often as we can - to the point that they may put a plaque on Main Street declaring it to be the Fluckfamilyland. Okay..not that many times and we’d have to pay them a gazillion dollars to do that but still…you get the point. Michaela and I love Disneyland. We also love Disney World but we don’t get there as often. Disneyland is our HAPPY PLACE.
I also like to talk politics, American Idol, General Hospital (sometimes) and Grey’s Anatomy. Michaela’s favorite show is House and I watch that with her but I rarely, if ever, blog about it. I just think it is funny that a 6 year old’s favorite show is a medical drama. Lastly, as you can see, I also like to blog about my daughter. She is my ray of sunshine in this dark world. She is my hope for a happier tomorrow and she is my reason why living life despite the sorrow is so important.
So there you have it…a little about me. I look forward to blogging more and hopefully having more comments from you, the reader. Thanks for visiting…
